I am not struggling with an eating disorder….or am I??

Have you had a moment that you craved for a taste of chocolate and ended up eating a whole chocolate bar? How did you feel right after? How did your body feel?
Were you disappointed in you for not being able to resist the crave, or not stopping with just one bite? Or, were you ashamed of yourself and decided to punish you by having more junks?

Well, did you know that this could be a sign of a struggle from an eating disorder? I’ve done it so long in the past, but I had never ever thought that I had an “disorder”. Now I know I did and I admit it, I totally had an eating disorder and suffered from some more eating disorders. What I did not know was that I needed look inside of me and heal my soul instead of worrying about the food I ate or clothes I was able to fit in.

So, if you ever have a moment you have an urge to eat something, just listen to your body. First, acknowledge your wisdom of being able to hear what your body was trying to tell you. Be proud of yourself. Instead of feeling guilty of possibly having a chocolate, praise yourself for noticing the need. This is very important.

Then, ask yourself, “What can I eat to meet my body’s needs. Could I have a healthier option? Could I start with a piece of chocolate and switch to a nice soothing warm tea? Will my body and soul be satisfied if I had a banana with some almond butter on it? Maybe a small bowl of plain yogurt with nutrition-loaded berries?”

Be kind to yourself and your body, if not for you, for me, please:)

Men suffer from eating disorders as well…

I once worked exclusively with women for eating disorders, but I realized that men also had equal pressure toward their food choice, body images and self-esteem to women. According to Haleh Moravej, a senior lecturer in nutritional sciences at Manchester Metropolitan University;

“Eating disorders are not about food but emotions and control. Some people cope with everyday anxiety and disappointments and other stressful issues by restricting or overeating and binge eating.

“Low self-esteem can lead to males being dissatisfied with their bodies and feeling an overwhelming pressure to change their themselves physically.”

Full article is here.

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There is no need to be feel ashamed. I have been there, and I always blamed on myself for not being “strong enough” to keep whatever the promises I made with food. I never imagined that I needed to look into my emotions. I never even thought I had an eating disorder and I was very good at hiding it. I can bet that many people around me thought my life was pretty content and I was happy.

If you need someone to talk, you know where to find me. I will listen with no judgement. We can chat over Skype or phone. Here is a first step for you to overcome the challenge you feel hopeless to change.
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More diets means more pounds?

“You can only hold your breath for so long. You can only starve yourself for so long.”

If you have been on a diet and are still on a diet, not reaching where you want to be, here is a great article by Dr. Mark Hyman.  On top of his research-based-suggestions, I think we need to change our way of THINKING about a relationship between food and our body before we can make a lifelong change for healthier version of ourselves.

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Enjoy and live a happy and healthy life that you deserve!


Diets Don’t Work…then what?

When I used to be on diets (for over 20 years), approaches I took were always “all or nothing”.  With that, I would do well for a few days or a week, thinking I was successful and rocking the world.  Well, then you know how things go.  I would start feeling so stressed, have no energy, extremely irritated with the diet, I would cheat a bit, then a huge guilt would fall on me, and I would consider myself a failure.  That disappointment is so huge, that I would feel hopeless, I would binge, and gain back all the weight I’ve lost, if not weighing more than ever.  Not only it affected my weight, it deeply affected psychologically every time I ‘failed’.  My self esteem went lower and lower.  I became extremely self conscious about how people thought about me or looked at me.  I could go on and on for this vicious cycle, or I should just call ‘an eating disorder (which I never thought that I was suffering from it)’ but I am happy to say that I am in control with food, not that food is controlling my life.

Well, what did I do?  I needed some professional supporters, who could REALLY listen to me with NO JUDGEMENTS, being present with me, how and what I thought about myself, and carefully paid attention to my traumatic events I had not been able to share with anyone before because I was too ashamed of myself.  And this is what I am trained to be at this moment at Institute for Integrative Nutrition (IIN).

Also, it helped me to have recognized that everything should be in moderation, not being hard on myself, and I started to apply “90/10 Theory (a flexible approach to eating that strives for eating healthy foods 90% of the time and allowing 10% of the time to eat whatever you feel like eating.) “.   

We tend to focus on ‘what we could not do’, ‘what we should have done’, but make sure to look at the positive side of your achievements while you are on this theory, celebrate what you have done, maybe adding a piece of vegetable in a meal, or not having the second cookie;).  Writing a journal might encourage you to see the progress you’ve made (I enjoyed making some goals for the day and checking them off at the end of the day).
It also made a huge difference to have someone to hold accountable to while I was on the journey.  Find someone who is always there for you with no judgement, who can really listen to you, validate you, and sympathize you if necessary.  And you know, I am one of them.
Contact me if you need me.  I will be honored to support you.



I just joined “Dove Movement” (www.dovemovement.com) through a blog of super woman @YukariP. For me, I had suffered from low self-esteem from about 16 to 25 years old, especially with my body images. I had believed I was too fat and then I was too thin. I have experienced severe eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia during that time.
This is one of the reasons why I am so passionate about my trainings and counselings – to make sure my clients know that they are truly beautiful. I wish I had a mentor who could have told me that it was okay to have been me when I was 13.
I hope YOU decide to join the movement and help girls to have great confidence in their bright future!